angelvelvet

Pull me in farther, Draw me in deep. Keep on going, Into eternal sleep. Don't try to stop, It will only get worse. It's like I'm stuck inside A giant clasping purse. You ask for answers, I don't know what to say, I can only hope That it won't get worse someday.

I spread the love to all. I spend my time making everyone else see their value, But I neglect myself. Value? Who, me? I have none. I'm a nobody. I never admit how I feel, Not even to my closest friends. I tell everyone they are worth it; They all have something worth fighting for. What do I have? Daily stress, a broken and healing heart, Constant emotional pain. Permanent scars. I can't take my own advice.

All I show is anger. Inside I am hurting. Crying. I lash out, but I'm hiding the truth. I can't handle the pain, so I create more pain. No one knows the truth. Pain, always pain. Nothing but pain.

Pain. Nothing but pain. I put on masks so no one worries, But I am always in pain. I need someone to take the pain away. I need someone to tell me it will be alright. Please.

I'm cold. Why am I so cold? I open my eyes, and am looking up at a forest canopy. Startled, I look around. No one else is there. Suddenly I hear a noise. Looking around, I spot a small child, abour eight or so, crying nearby. I slowly approach her. "Are you okay?" I ask, cautiously. Startled, she spins around. As I see her face, I jump back in shock. I'm looking at my eight year old self. "Don't hurt me. Don't leave me. Everyone leaves,"  she mumbles. I start to back away, and she panicks. "Don't leave me!!!" She grabs my shirt and clings to me desperately. "Sweetie... it's going to be okay-" "Don't lie to me!!! Everyone says that and

I've been so focused on me, When it needs to be all about You. I stress and fret over thr future, But there's nothing for me to do. It doesn't matter if I'm single, It doesn't matter if I'm alone, You're with me whenever, I don't even need to pick up the phone. I need to work on praying, It's the best thing I can do, I need to become lesser, The focus needs to be on You.

I say that I won't lie, Because I hate it. "So I'm not worth the truth? It hurts me more than you know." But what hurts me more Is the knowledge that I lie. I say I won't lie, Yet I lie over and over. Lying has ruined relationships. Being a hypocrite has hurt myself more than being lied to. Lying makes everything worse.

A simple comment sends me running. I fight back tears... Crying, always crying. Fine again. Nothing's wrong, why do you ask? Mask goes back up. I can do this. Spiraling back into darkness... I start again. Avoiding the thoughts, the knives. They look so inviting... Hiding it inside. I refuse to tell a soul. They can't know who I really am.

I open my eyes, and immediately wish I hadn't. Screaming. Everywhere there is screaming. And fire. And lots of glass. I slowly stand up. The scene is chaos. People are running in every direction. The glass covers the entire scene. The fire engulfs us. I spot my mother crying several feet from me. I run to her, and try to speak. What's wrong mother? What happened? Why aren't you answering me...? A police officer comes over to console her and deliver the news. You are dead, your body broken and bleeding. I am here! Why does no one see me? Suddenly you understand. You are gone. The shattered glass that covers the ground is a permanent pa

Is it possible to love two people at once? Well obviously it is, because we love multiple people in our lifetimes. Our parents, siblings, friends - we love them all. But is it possible to love two different guys at once? I'm starting to think that it is. I know, sounds like something out of Twilight, right? In reality, it can happen everyday. It's happening to me right now. There was a boy last year about this time. He was sweet, funny, and the type of guy who would buy you random gifts just to show he cared. We dated for awhile, but out religious differences became too much to handle. Breaking up with him was one of the hardest things I